the girl I was then: I forgive you ☾ my best advice for your university years


When I entered to the university to do my bachelor’s degree, in addition to me being completely disconcerted all the time I was also fed up with partying before it really started. I didn’t know anything about the university life or what was involved to it and to be honest I never earlier in my life was interested about it. I was the first person in my family to go to the university and that being said you might understand that I didn’t understand what there was worth of understanding.

The situation was epic. I was in some weird country second time in my life and arounded with people who had decided became new Steven Jobs and wanted to party in the V.I.P sections and drink rum and get to know to each other. I was confused, missing Greece and completely wear out of the alcohol. I didn’t know that one of the biggest things involved going to the university was drinking. And on the other hand, I didn’t want to. So I found a ballet company and continued my dancing career. I didn’t get the luxorious life or the edge of hanging with someone who had money only for the sake of money. I never was in that way and I prolly won’t ever been. And to be honest, people who are just like from post malone’s rock star song still get to my nerves. I don’t know man, I bet I have became old and grumpy, but I try to be full of love 😀

But really, no matter how hard I try understand it, it doesn’t sink into me. I was never instructed to go after anyone’s money and it was always made really clear to me that being independent is way to go. And having high morals is way to go (whatever way you want to define it, but I assume you know what I think they are, altough they are not for everyone the same and you do you if you have different moral values than me and that is fine as well, let all the flowers bloom).The unpopular opinion that nobody says out loud, that there is so many people in those circles who make it seem that they have so much money when the reality is the opposite. What you get by trying to show off that you have money and exclusive parties? Do you really want to attract the people who you want to. But on the other hand there is a side that I get. I think nobody should be judged by their values when the value is money. I am sure there is a person for everyone to be found. And if your values is to go after people who seem to have money and LA lifestyle, you do you. I hope it makes you happy in a long run (I don’t know where this really came from I just so pissed now :D:D:D:D:D).

So, back to the point. It was kinda confusing to get kicked in to the private university with the creme de la creme, if you wish.

Later on I found the parties though, but that’s a different story.

I came to Estonia as having this assumption that I didn’t fit in, because that was how I was most of the time treated by Finnish people in Finland. But all the sudden in Estonia, all the Finnish university fellows were nice and warm. They wanted to get know to each other and the first time I really felt like they liked me as who I am.

Despite the fact I found people funny and pulsating, I still spend a lot of time at home. I have many theories why I did so, but without going in there any further I need to say that if I had chance to give a lesson to my younger self I would say just go to the damn parties and have fun and stop carrying that whole burden with you. 

I remember how one of the professors said that get to know to these people, they will be around you when you graduate. I was thinking in my mind like yeah right man, they surely will be.

And I think that is the lesson you should take with you from this post. Get intouch with people and let them show you the world how they see it. Enjoy the parties and network a lot. But most of all- be safe while doing that.

I love you so very much, you don’t even get it. Thank you for reading my posts it means so incredibly much to me because I love writing to you. Feel important today.

2 thoughts on “the girl I was then: I forgive you ☾ my best advice for your university years

  1. foloren torium says:

    Wow that was odd. I just wrote an very long comment but after I clicked submit my comment didn’t appear. Grrrr… well I’m not writing all that over again. Regardless, just wanted to say fantastic blog!

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